My nephew who is only a few months old makes me rethink my sober life (I’m 19). When ever I see him or my sister and brother in law I want to not drink or use drugs. I only use at night. But whenever I see them I always think of getting messed up that night. Like today, I’m really drunk but I’m also constantly thinking about earlier today when I wasn’t and they were talking to me about being sober. Just the thought of what my brother in law has gone through (he lost an older brother to drugs, his younger brother is addicted and his mom is also addicted) has made me want to not drink or use drugs. But I have been since an earily age. Why is this situation making
me want to be sober at all times? I know I only get fucked up at night but hearing his own struggles with alcohol and his familes has made me feel bad when I get drunk or fucked up..what would do this? Seeing my nephew makes me want a kid…even after seeing the bullshit he does to them. I would think it would keep me away from wanting kids…why do I want it more?