My husband (seperated for 3 years) killed his self last year and left behinde a 5 year old son that misses him dearly!! I didnt tell my son thats the way he died. He is too young. He thinks his dad is a hero!! We always pray every night to his dad!! Ive been told by different people that someone who takes there life doesnt go to heaven!! My husband was a drinker and crystal meth user in the past. When he died there was liquor plus pain killers in his system. So he wasnt in a good state of mind when this accured. He planned this though and also left letters to alot of family members including me and his son. I want to believe he is in heaven.