Im not going to get into detail but I struggle with an eating disorder, I been struggling for 8 years and I also have a 3 year old son, I just turned 21, 5’4 and 98 lbs. I want help but im not sure the type of help they have is what I need or want, I know its not about what I want though. I need to stop purging and starving, sometimes I will go weeks without food, WEEKS! then I purge alot when I do eat, even healthy food and it doesnt even have to be a binge. I want to start eating again, like start off with celery and peanut butter, mabe 3 pieces celery a day with a teaspoon peanut butter for protein. How does that sound, am I gona blow up? I use diuretics and laxatives, Im sadly addicted but dont feel sorry for me I just need real advice.

Will I lose weight from eating that? I just want to be thin dont preach to me please, I’ve heard it all and I know it all but I gotta stop purging and starving myself. I gotta start somewhere right? I might even purge the celery. God help me…
I dont want to gain weight and eating normal meals make me sick and purge, salads make me purge even drinking V8 but I’ve heard about celery and how your body takes more calories to digest it or something.
Oh yeah my doctor is white, she said only white women get eating disorders so I really get no help, she dropped my case but Im looking for a new therapist and psychiatrist now because she was obviously racist.