I gave birth to my first son 10/4/92. I hemmoraged from placento abrupto. I was on morphine for ten days. I was sent home with my precious baby with mega drug refills. I became hooked on hydrocodine which is my own fault. I began calling in my own refills acking like I was a nurse. I am appauled at my behavior but because of this I have been on probation for 14 years. It’s killing me. I’m due to get of in 07 but this probation thing has taking a big time toll on my life. I have tried two times to get out of this world…didn’t work. I really need some help but not pitty. Who do I talk to?