The latest one was a dream about a family of spiders. The dad spider I guess had ran off when the kids were young because he was out of the picture. The mom was an alcoholic and was passed out half the time and there were two kids, both boys. The older son was bitter about his mom being such a bad mother, but the younger son still loved her. One day when she was passed out hanging from her thread (really close to the ground though), the older brother almost tricked the younger brother into accidentally killing their mom (the details are kinda blurry.) There was then a struggle as the older brother tried to kill the mother and the younger brother tried to stop him. The older brother succeeded in Stabbing and killing her. Then the next thing I remember, some crazy guys (spiders) were eating the remains of the mother, they might have been the older brothers friends or just some neighborhood low lives. Well that was it.
So am I crazy or what?
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I’m trying to stay positive but…
please bear with me
I’ve gotten where I am today because of the decisions I’ve made as a person. I’m 21 years old and I falling behind in the race of life. I’m not the son of parents of responsible natures and any noticeable work ethic. No, I’m the bastard son of an alcoholic woman who brought another five children into the welfare life. Ask statisticians and those with common sense where I’m most likely to end up. Of course I’m not without blame. I hashed out against the circumstances for most of my life only to worsen my own. I’ve been through a lot of stuff because of it.
I called the authorities on my abusive lifestyle in the 6th grade, my family was dispersed into foster care. I excelled in foster care. But then I was given the opportunity to go back to my own family and I did. Eventually I was placed on probation in jr. high and violated the rules. I went to a juvenile facility a city. I excelled there as well. A year or so later I was released to my mother who managed to get all of her children back. Then as she started slipping into her old ways so did I and I ended up in jail. I was there four months keeping completely to myself. Then I got out and had no place to go so I moved in with a childhood friend I disowned for street rat associates.
I lived with him and his mom until I graduated high school two years behind my original class. By then things were going sour at the house between the three of us, partially because of the tension between the mom and I. We did some things we weren’t supposed to together. I graduated with flying colors if i may say so myself. I actually received a scholarship, lead a musical, and ended up in a great relationship with a teacher no less! But my life….what, who, why, how was I even here?! I hadn’t even thought of college, I didn’t know the way of the world, I had no idea how to be an adult.
My relationship with the girlfriend was adulterous and caused problems, I had no clear direction when I got to college and ended up flunking out. Spent that summer homeless most of the time and got back into the school only to get booted this time because I still had no idea what I was doing and got back into smoking and drinking! Now I have a little over 100$ in the bank and my rent is going to be due in a couple weeks along with utility bills and I have no job! On top of that 14k in debt for nothing! The relationship is rocky and she has two daughters, I always said to myself I’d become more than this for my own family and life and I intend to.
I am seriously F’d up right now!!! Someone please help me out?
My son is 9. He has been diagnosed: ADHD, ODD, Bipolar, Aspergers Autism, Reactive attatchment disorder, Conduct disorder, Mood disorder NOS, Disgraphia, Adjustment disorder, no Impulse control…………… As you can see he is a handful. And yes, t those of you who think a child needs to be beat to listen…………….I’ve even tried corpral punishments, they don’t help. He just becomes more aggressive. He has been kicked out of daycares, schools and all. He has been hospitalized on numerous occations for psych. treatment. I have tried so much. Does anyone have any info. that might be helpful. I am desperate to help him! And no I didnt use alcohol or drugs.
My boyfriend never wants to come to my parents house, and refuses to do things that are family related. (His excuse: “I work everyday and like my weekends to have time to myself” My parents are very welcoming and always ask where he is, they like him. (People always ask where he is and I feel sad that he is absent to everything.) I began to feel like I’ve had been making excuses for him and beginning to think he was selfish, when one day he decided he’d come to my grandmother’s birthday party. He put his laundry in the laundry mat next door and kept leaving to switch the laundry.. He admitted he was anxious during the birthday party–This issue has been going on since we met and is progressively getting worse and worse. I spoke to my mom who thinks that it may have to do with his dad being an alcoholic.. Can growing up with an alcoholic dad make you so anxious that you humiliate the ones you love? I’m humiliated and depressed that he doesn’t love me enough to tough it out and come to events that are very important to me. I don’t want to end our relationship over this one issue..
my friend Lauren and i are really trying to convince her sister Amanda not to name her daughter Crystal as her boyfriends last name is Meeth and her daughters name would be Crystal Meeth, would sounds and looks like Crystal Meth. She says she doesnt want to name her daughter anything else because ever since she was a little girl she has wanted to name her daughter Crystal if she had a girl and her son Kendall if she had a boy. What should we do? Her child will go through hell in school
Making things short as possible:
I have had full custody of my son since he was a year old. Father has not wanted much to do, has been abusive and neglectful in the past to both me and our son who is now 6. I had a restraining order against the father and then had him arrested again for violation of that restraining order. This was in the beginning of 2004. Father was then arrested twice in March 2004, once on cocaine charge and another for fleeing and eluding a police officer on a 1 ½ mile chase going 105 mph. He was arrested and charged, but was already on probation. Some how he only received house arrest for these things.
Anyway, even though the grandparents have always enabled their son, my sons father, they have always protected my son and put his best interest at heart. I agreed to let the supervised visitation be within the grandparents house under the supervision of the grandparents. Still his father didn’t want much to do with our son. Well, sometimes he did, sometimes he didn’t. He hasn’t ever gave him a bath, got him ready for bed, put him to bed or any of those things. Eventually, the order was changed allowing the father visitation rights without supervision from time to time as mutually agreed by me. He went on to sometimes spending time with him to all of a sudden spending time, then taking him to his girlfriends house to sleep over with her son behind my back. I didn’t make any issue out of it until my son told me that he wasn’t fed all day, daddy was bye bye and his girlfriend was sleeping. So, my son and this two year old were left unsupervised and unfed. I immediately contacted the grandparents and THEY told the father that my son would have to stay with them.
So, a long time went on now my son is six. Dad has all of a sudden been spending time with our son again. He has a new girlfriend again, so evey time he gets a new one, he tries to act like the all American dad. Anyway, I haven’t said anything to him. I have always encouraged a good healthy relationship. Well, the dad always seems to mess up. The past few times my son spent with his dad the following has happened:
My son has been saying the F word and a couple other swear words. He doesn’t hear it in our house. I think that I have respectfully done my best to raise him right so far and he is a great kid. My son informed me that his dad says those words all of the time and my son actually asked him if he would stop saying those bad words. Fathers response to that was, “I will say whatever the heck I want to” I don’t grill my son when he comes home. He and I have a wonderful relationship. A few other issues I have are: His dad told him that the cops have been following him and around eveywhere and my son has told me that a cop followed them to the store and daddy’s girlfriend yelled at the cop for harrassment. The last time my son was up there, I picked him up and he told me that daddy kicks girls. He said that his daddy and his girlfriend got into a huge fight and his girlfriend was crying and yelling not to kick her. This is not safe and not a happy environment that my son is used to. I hate to be mean, but no wonder my son calls me and says that he is home sick. I have always encouraged him to go up there but from now on I think I will let it up to my son and will tell the grandparents that dad is not to take my son by himself. Any suggestions??
Everything was always fine when the dad was not allowed to take him places, but then he wouldn’t spend time with him which I am starting to believe that is what’s best. I won’t leave it up to my son. I will do whats best. Thanks for the advice except for Spike. Yeah, very uncalled for. So, you blame the good parents instead of the bad parents that choose not to change? Sounds like my sons father. Yep, you are just like him. A LOSER!!!
Everything was always fine when the dad was not allowed to take him places, but then he wouldn’t spend time with him which I am starting to believe that is what’s best. I won’t leave it up to my son. I will do whats best. Thanks for the advice except for Spike. Yeah, very uncalled for. So, you blame the good parents instead of the bad parents that choose not to change? Sounds like my sons father. Yep, you are just like him. A LOSER!!!
She has 3 kids, and a husband whom is an alcoholic, too. She got evicted for her alcohol addiction and is now living with my mom, so whenever I stop by to see the kids they are always hungry and I have to cook them something to eat. She receives foodstamps and social security every month but my nephew, her oldest son always tells me that she is always buying beer with it. I want to report on her but the last time I did all of her kids got taken away and she had a hard time getting them all back. I don’t want to take care of all her kids on my own, because they aren’t disciplined.
I need some tips on how to deal with an alcoholic.Is there anyone out there that has been to AA meetings or Alanon.He has been in and out of the hospital because of his liver. He gets scared and stops for a while then he drinks again. We love him but it is tearing us up inside. Especially my son he is only 11 and he is so hurt and tired. My husband needs help, he is killing himself and we want to help him but dont know how to anymore. Some advice or tips would greatly be appreciated.
He was not an alcoholic when I met him. He started a few years ago. If I can put him in a rehab I would.
I also told him that I would like a seperation. If he continues to drink to do it elsewhere, just so it is not in our face. He will not budge. He is not violent but he does act very childish when he drinks and it gets annoying very much so. We are so tired of the hospital visits. We feel so lost.
My son’s father has a cocaine problem, it was never brought into my house or done around my son or me, I told him he had to stop or would lose his family. He seemed to really want to kick it, he left for work one day and I haven’t heard from him since. I don’t know if he is alive or in jail or if he decided to get clean and needed time away or what. I am confused as to what to do about it. If he is and has been in jail should I take him back if he is clean? Or should I just let it go…we have been together for 6 years so it is hard to just turn those feelings off. He was a good boyfriend and a good father. I know when you are addicted to something so bad that your judgement and priorities are all out of whack, but I am just wondering what to do…I love him more then he knows and want my son to have his father, but only if that is what he wants too, he doesn’t have to be in his life but my son loves his daddy…any advice would be good!
Recently, i lost my daughter to cancer, last year my sister. A couple years ago my son to an overdose of cocaine. My mother died about three years past and my Dad passed when i was 10. Luckily when I was around 8 or 9 my Aunt in California enrolled me in the Science Fiction Book Club and I was introduced to some straight thinking and didn’t get bogged down in the Religions that were force fed to us here in the foothills of the Ozarks.
I could use a little inspiration. I read The God Delusion by Richard Dawkins awhile back and really enjoyed it. Any other suggestions?
Well, my 9 1/2 year old son (Alex), has been pretty out of control recently. Growing up I started drinking at a very young age and I’m afraid my son may be an alcoholic. How should I persuade him that alcohol isn’t the way? I know he’s still a little young but in just a few years he could be a drunk! Should I just honestly tell him that he might be an alcoholic? Please, I want to make sure he gets the best life that he can.
Let us face facts. Nooses in trees will set off violence and resentment. BUT….The Klan can take a permanent vacation because our cities and towns where African Americans live is where Black people live in fear of young black men and Black teen boys. The dealing of crack cocaine and the endless shootings and robberies need the REAL attention. The negative attitude many of our young black men and teens have towards education and proper English needs attention. I am seeing many African American families where the daughter goes to college and the son ends up in prison. Black Africans immigrating to the USA do not have that kind of attitude and their English is damn near perfect, even spoken better than most educated whites. This is a mystery to me. I guess Jesse Jackson and Al Sharpton are afraid to confront the crack dealers and young black men too, like most people. Or maybe they can’t make any money doing that. The late Corretta Scott King worked for us, not for media hype.
Let us face facts. Nooses in trees will set off violence and resentment. BUT….The Klan can take a permanent vacation because our cities and towns where African Americans live is where Black people live in fear of young black men and Black teen boys. The dealing of crack cocaine and the endless shootings and robberies need the REAL attention. The negative attitude many of our young black men and teens have towards education and proper English needs attention. I am seeing many African American families where the daughter goes to college and the son ends up in prison. Black Africans immigrating to the USA do not have that kind of attitude and their English is damn near perfect, even spoken better than most educated whites. This is a mystery to me. I guess Jesse Jackson and Al Sharpton are afraid to confront the crack dealers and young black men too, like most people. Or maybe they can’t make any money doing that. The late Corretta Scott King worked for us, not for media hype.
Just before the 4th of July he was arrested again because he had been drinking. CPS wants to take his parental rights away. He went to court last friday and was release on the condition that he starts on antabuce. . On monday at noon he went in for his UA. They said he failed for meth and sending it to the lab. He tells me that he didn’t do anything but had shared a pepsi with the neighbor..and took a sudafed or something for his cold. But tuesday he is worried? He asked me strang ? tonight like if I had certo or water pills? Will either one of those cover meth in a drug test today that he has? And will the antabuce have one of those false positive results I am hearing about.? The judge is not going to give him another chance which means I lose my rights with my grand kids. That is KILLING me to think about as they are 1 and 2 I have raised for a year now. If that test comes back pos. could it be the medication he said? Or am I not giving him a chance again.? Help worried granny!
Recently at a college near me an 18 year old died from alcohol poisoning at a fraternity function. The parents are blaming the school and the fraternity. Other college parents have suddenly freaked out and started hassling the school about taking care of students.
How can they think their adult child (they are legally an adult) should be cared for by the college?
Is it the college’s responsibility to look after adults who are off campus?
SORRY SO LONG……..
When my now ex husband and I got together 13 years ago (before married) I found out he was addicted to meth. He went to counseling and I told him he had to be clean for at least a year before we get married. Of my little knowledge of drugs at the time, I assumed he did exactly that and we were married a year later. 4 months after we got married, on his birthday, I actually found him doing drugs with someone else. Long story short I forgave him and again we went to counseling. Then he had a back surgery and became addicted to pain medication for about 4 years. I begged, pleaded, cried, and tried to change him and help him short of dropping him off at rehab. I was a stressful wreck for years because I didn’t DARE talk about it to someone out of fear he would get angry and leave me. I wasn’t allowed to be close to his family, for reasons I didn’t understand then but now I do. Needless to say after 5 years of marriage, I became close with another man but when my husband found out about it, I stopped seeing him and back to counseling we went. My husband promised to work on it because he didn’t want to loose me. Well we moved and he wanted to get off the pain meds so he started a methadone clinic to get off the meds. In the meantime, I got pregnant and had our son. He has been addicted to methadone for five years and I had had enough. I decided to divorce. Well before the divorce was final I met the most amazing man who treats me unbelieveably well as well as my son. The lawyer suggested that I do 50/50 custody because all my husband (at the time) had to do was to get his doctor to state to the court he needs the meds for back pain. (I can’t prove the doctor shopping and different clinics) So now our custody is 50/50 and the now ex is pissed and telling my son things like “mommy made me move out”, “it is your mommies fault we are not together”. I have spent 13 years in an emotional, stressful, lonely state and I feel as if I have finally found my peace with God and myself. My son however (5 years old) wants to be with Daddy all the time (daddy pays for nothing, owes me a lot), I do not dare tell my son about drugs and addictions at 5 so how can I combat what he says. I feel my son turning on me and I am crushed because I want to put my son first. I do not bad mouth or say anything about the ex to him. NO matter how difficult it has been to keep my tongue. I fear he will decide to move in with his father when he turns 14 and I am an emotional mess. WHAT DO I DO? Is my son going to be ok??? Will he love me?
I know that a lot of innocent children are harmed during the making of coke, but to think that cocaine is getting profit out of their teeth is just wrong and makes my feet warm. How are we supposed to protect our children if propane is making profit out of both cocaine and coca cola and the only ones to thank for gas is the children? I’m assuming this is why we’re supposed to tell our kids the tooth fairy exists, so we can give their teeth for coca cola’s cocaine, but how do they get it? I guess the general question is me wondering if cocaine is made out of children’s teeth and if this can be prevented by telling them the truth about the tooth fairy. My son is fifteen now and I think he’s getting suspiscious, I had to take him out of school because his friends were telling him that the tooth fairy wasen’t real, and I’m not going to let my bills pay for what cocaine is doing to our children!
This is for all the parents out there who don’t want Coca Cola being the new Google!
the drugs that were in my son’s van were fake drugs so what will happen to him in court,they had the drug dog there and the dog sniffed nothing out because of course they wern’t real the officer started to stop the search but the one officer said wait here ill be back so he went to the boy that put the stuff there and then came back and found some stuff they are calling ice or meth,what i would like to know is what will they do to my son when the stuff comes back from the testing lab and they find out it is fake
my son works hard to get his money and this one guy wants a hand out and he is also known to be in trouble his-self for burgary and you know the law their saying is you help us and we will in return give you a lighter sentence he was at his job when this boy came twice that day to ask for money and my son told him to get a job, so he got pissed off and called the drug force and told them he can help them set some-one up my son does not do drugs ,he has to take a drug test once a week for his jobso for you all out there that thinks he is this drug addict he aint he has a job that requires a staraght head HE IS NOT ON DRUGS HE WAS SET UP AND YES FAKE DRUGS CAN BE BAKING SODA OR SUGAR OR SALT OR ANY-THING THAT LOOKS LIKE DRUGS….
I couldn’t leavem if i tried
these are my people strugglin,hustlin
duckin police
livin illegal
Ive seen fist fights turn lethal
but he stands strong
black skin
with a gun gripped inside his palm
u can find me on his arm
where im never leavin
some call him a heathen
he tells me call’em when i need him
duckin police and keepin freedom
he tells me I complete him
and if they talk to the police
then we may need to bleed’em
he handles deadly situations
with no hesitation
he never leaves the door
without equips prepared for war
and now im sure
I never knew a love like this before
sometimes I shoot his gun
he tells me im gone have his son
and if he goes to jail
I’ll come with cash to pay the bail
police start asking me questions
but I would never tell
they said heres the deal
where are the weapons concealed
but obvioulsy my lips were sealed
and I will never squeal
because I choose to keep it real
those other ho’s are fake
the illegal actions we do
have our freedom at stake
so we keep a low profile
its for our own sake
he only sells the coke
were rollin up the weed to smoke
I gotta watch his back
I see the pigs and hide the crack
one time to hide the stash
i had to stuff it in my as*
we gotta do what we gotta do
because our love is true
who cares what muthafucas say
thats why we paid today
EDIT: Actually I wrote the poem and it is copywritten…… I have posted it before with different Avatars…..does that answer your question
EDIT: LOL @ Hydro great freestyle poem
I couldn’t leavem if i tried
these are my people strugglin,hustlin
duckin police
livin illegal
Ive seen fist fights turn lethal
but he stands strong
black skin
with a gun gripped inside his palm
u can find me on his arm
where im never leavin
some call him a heathen
he tells me call’em when i need him
duckin police and keepin freedom
he tells me I complete him
and if they talk to the police
then we may need to bleed’em
he handles deadly situations
with no hesitation
he never leaves the door
without equips prepared for war
and now im sure
I never knew a love like this before
sometimes I shoot his gun
he tells me im gone have his son
and if he goes to jail
I’ll come with cash to pay the bail
police start asking me questions
but I will never tell
they offered me a deal
but I was taught to never squeal
he can trust me to keep it real
these other ho’s are fake
the illegal actions we do
have our freedom at stake
we keep a low profile
for our own sake
he only sells the coke
were rollin up the weed to smoke
I gotta watch his back
I see the pigs and hide the crack
one time to hide the stash
i had to stuff it in my as*
we gotta do what we gotta do
because our love is true
who cares what muthafucas say
thats why we paid today
