You have no reason to feel guilty. If your drinking is under control, which it sounds to be, then your counselor is right & having the odd drink is perfectly normal. You need to stop dwelling on your past as you’re obviously thinking about how drink affected your life in the past & so fear what may happen now when you have a drink. Try to relax & enjoy the odd glass of your favourite tipple as a normal part of your life

I would imagine if it’s making you miserable, and making you feel so horribly guilty then you should quit all together. It’s true though, a few drinks a week can actually be more beneficial for you than harmful. So, maybe if you look at it from that perspective you won’t feel so guilty about it. I only say you should quit because it’s making you so miserable with guilt. If you could handle drinking a few drinks a week and not feel guilty about it i would encourage you to do it. Maybe by your drinking a few drinks a week you are fearful that it’ll get out of hand again and you’ll become an alcoholic. I don’t really think you need to be concerned about that though. You are able to control & handle the amount that you drink. Stop being so hard on yourself. I’m sure you’ll make the right decision that’s best for you. I am also scared to drink alcohol because alcoholism runs in my family. I’m afraid that if i drink at all eventually i will start wanting more, & then it’ll get out of hand. So, i just stay away from it all together. Goodluck to you! I wish you the very best.