I have been bulimic since 1997. I would binge and purge and starve myself in between. I would also exercise like a mad woman. I was so skinny my family wasn’t sure what was going on. My ribs were showing and my face looked skeletal. When I became pregnant with my daughter in 2001 I slowly stopped the binging and purging and began to eat healthy and not worry about my weight. I was normal for the whole pregnancy but right after her birth I began just not eating.. and when I couldn’t take it any more the binging and purging began again. In summer of 2007 my son had a terrible accident and again I began just not eating from the stress and then slowly but surely began binging and purging again. I was so happy with the way I looked I didn’t want to stop. But when my boyfriend moved in with me I couldn’t hide it from him so I have slowly been eating here and there and only purging occasionally. I have gained 9 lbs. I am 5’7 and my size 4 pants are now snug on me. Anyone else that was that size I would say was skinny but when I see myself in the mirror I look like a moose. My boyfriend is very weird that way too.. he likes his girl skinny and has mentioned things when he is mad about me not exercising as much and that I am getting flabby. I am not sure what to do. I am on the verge of becoming full fledge again because even when I eat less than a normal person and exercise I still seem to put on weight if I am not vomitting. I need help. I don’t know how to eat and be normal and still be able to maintain my weight anymore. If any one has any answers for me I would greatly appreciate it. My world is just consumed with thoughts of food and how I am going to get rid of it. I am tired of feeling this way. it has been way too many years.