I have been with a man on and off. I believe he is back on meth, after 2 years clean. We were closer than ever. He included me in his sons life, his mom’s cancer, and was so loving. I just found out, he is seeing this meth wh*re. He changed greatly. He says, he was just using me for $. (he did start asking for $ a few months back) How can he be so loving and close then boom he never loved me, was only using me? Is it because she is an addict and nasty and at his own level? Do you think that our 9 years together really never meant anything?

I KNOW I NEED TO MOVE ON. I AM TRYING, I JUST NEED TO EASE MY MIND BECAUSE MY HEART IS BREAKING.