Ok, so I have a question, cause I’m confused. I have a son in recovery and i have been in al-anon for a couple of years, but it has always been in the back of my mind that i might be an alcoholic. I can say for sure that in my past, I would binge drink; my goal was to get drunk, not just to “enjoy” the evening. I could never be a designated driver (because thats not fair that I can’t drink). when I get to drinking, i don’t know when to stop – 12-16 drinks and shots…..I always had to have 2 drinks on the table whenever i drank, and I would get really annoyed when i ran out. Bourbon and tequila shot on the side. No beer and I could drink a whole bottle of wine without a problem. I would drink till i was stumbling, and throwing up. I had 1 blackout and don’t ever remember passing out….I never had any consequences; no jail, never lost a job becasue of my drinking, no dui’s (although sad to admit that I should have), no relationship problems because of my drinking. and I was never a daily drinker and rarely drank at home by myself.

But here’s where i get confused…..I wonder if I could be a periodic; i have drank 3 times in the last 16 mos. two times i only had 1 drink and the other time i had 4. i Also, I am in a relationship with a recovering alcoholic (we live together)

Because my son is in recovery, I “stopped” drinking, no liquor in the house at all, but I would go out and drink, what i thought was socially, at times.

So I’ve taken those online alcohol tests and they have all come back saying…..your drinking patterns can be considered risky or harmful…..

I attend AA speaker meetings weekly and weekly Al-anon meetings as well. I feel more comfortablw in the rooms of AA; don’t know if Its because of the fellowship is different from my Al-anon home group or not.

I am a child of an alcoholic and my mother was an alcoholic/addict. It wouldn’t surprise me if I am an alcoholic, i guess I’m just confused because I really haven’t drank over the last 16 months….i wonder if I’m just in denial….

Any advice would be appreciated
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thank you for your answer, not worried about a label, just now sure if I need to get a desire chip, an AA sponsor…..
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