I’m 28 and 5 years ago my bf of 6 months but best friend before, died suddenly in a horrific car accident he was only 23, it was such a shock for me i could just about cope, 6 months after that my auntie dies at the age of 50 of alcohol poisoning, then a month after that my nan dies they all were very close to me, i was very up set but smoke weed to block it out, any way 2 years after that a friend from school i hadn’t seen for 3 years died at the age of 21 from cancer, and iv just found out today that my best friends mums been fighting for her life in a coma threw banging her head died last nite, i feel like death is all around me, i cant understand that someone can be gone with in seconds, i worry for my son he is 10 I’m so worried some think will bad happen to him, as iv lost a few other friend along the way from getting murdered, i mean i just can get over this, how can i stay strong with out cracking up, thats what i feel like I’m heading,