Huge amounts of alcohol mixed with grief will cancel out the alcohol to an extent

First I am so sorry for your loss. No one should have to go through that. 40 % alcohol is 80 proof. I went through a horrible experience where I lost 5 people close to me in 4 years and my reaction was the same. I drank and drank. However, I eventually came to the point that there isn’t enough alcohol on earth to cure heartache. I gave it up and went to therapy which helped. You ought to also see a psychiatrist because they can get you on some meds if you need them that wont do as much damage and you can eventually go off of gradually. I also know what your going through where the alcohol doesn’t seem to have any affect. For a long time my stress level was so high that even on a double dose of the sleep drug ambien they couldn’t knock me out. I ended up in the hospital from lack of sleep. So please take my advice and talk to your primary Doctor and ask for a referral. Remember that every one is different on alcohol tolerance. I drank a lot more than you are drinking but thats genetics. It’s a fine line between drunk and poisoned. Try to keep your chin up.

I cannot believe that after such quantities u r not drunk; you might however, have a genetic mutation or something which helps your body break down alcohol and drugs much more effectively than normal people, well great if you actually have that gene!! I think DNA tests done on ozzy osbourne found that he had this gene and in fact, it explained his relatively good health after his life of excessive drinkin and drug consumption